This week! the Double A's

Alicia Keys and Atlanta this week. I'm very excited I can't wait. Feeling restless already. Geeze louise.

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Little Women

I don't know why I'm sooo emotional today! Watching "Little Women" and freaken balling. First time I've been able to relax on this hot ass day. But by not being busy physically,, my mind races, or I feel like I should be moving. But someone special gave me good,,no great advice,,He said "Success will come", "Take it one day at a time".

Sex and the City was amazing!

I loved loved loved this movie!!! I can't say it enough. I went on this journey with these women less than 10 years ago. As they sexed in the city, built friendships, had heartache, had loves, lots of them, I lived my own reality. Watching as the opening came up on the big screen I was sooo excited. Anticipating what was about to happen, where their lives had gone, what the Big and Carrie disappointment was gonna look like. And boy was that tough. As the wind was knocked out of Carrie, most of the audience members were in tears and trying to give her breath. As you see Charlotte and Miranda and Samantha wanting to protect her,,,and Charlottes evil grill to Big as Carrie attacks him with flowers outside the limo, I felt a sense of OMG I would do the same thing if someone hurt my best friend. The sister hood these women share, not always good but always full of love. I related to Mirandas, Carries, and Samantha's story lines the most. I relate to it all. One day at a time. One day at a time.

Shopping!!!

Today was my day of beauty. Got my curls done,,got new shoes, bags, and accessories. Woohoo! But as relaxing as that was my mind was still preoccupied with my stuff. But as they say,,,if you don't know what to do,,,don't do anything. Now I know not to say anything either.

Sex and the City!

The Heart of the Matter
Don Henley / The End of the Innocence

I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old, true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck
And the struggles we went through
And how I lost me and you lost you
What are those voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more ?


I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning again
I've been tryin' to get down
To the heart of the matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore


These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
People filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age ?
The trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition
Cannot fill these empty arms
And the work I put between us
Doesn't keep me warm


I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I'd figured out
I have to learn again
I've been trying to get down
To the heart of the matter
But everything changes
And my friends seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore


There are people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down and hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you, life goes on
You keep carryin' that anger, it'll eat you up inside


I've been trying to get down
To the heart of the matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me


I've been tryin' to get down
To the heart of the matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me

What I'm Made Of

This past month has truly been the most difficult I think I've been thru so far in my life.  I've realized I've lived a sheltered life.  Always being protected, loved, guided.  Now I'm out here in this world on my own, and I've gotten heart break, conned, and hated on.  What a month? lol  I'm trying not to focus on these negatives, so I laugh at myself cuz that's the only thing I can do.  But you know what's funny, thru all these things that have gotten me down, cried, on my way to becoming cynical about the world and people, I know I'm a good person and I don't want to stay down, cry, or be cynical about anything.  I want to live with integrity, honesty, and full of light that when I smile it isn't fake or tainted.  And I can still say no matter what, I'm still smiling,,,and I mean it too.  You should see me. lol It's soo easy to be mad, upset, ask why me?,,,but I'm kinda blessed to get these lessons of being more aware of my surroundings, let people earn my trust, don't just divulge everything to everyone, keep the tru people in my life close, and hold myself even closer.  I can only fully know what I'm thinking, feeling, my intentions in this world.  Karma is a kicker.