So inspired

This was one of the most inspiring weekends and eye opening weeks for me.  My  best friends came in from Miami for a friends wedding (themed Purple Rain,,dope) for a few days. I've been living on my own now with my roomate for a few months now but something was lacking in my life. Now don't get me wrong my life is great. Great family, friends, cool job, I can't complain. But there was something about this weekend that was so motivating, productive, and inspiring. Going around with my bestees as they saw all their friends in New York that they needed to catch up with since being in Miami this past year took me back to the days of where creativity ruled the world and not necessarily the liquor bottle. Great conversations about art, politics, pop culture, relationships and love. And laughs oh the laughs. I laughed from a good healthy place. lol :) I also had a BBQ where pretty much almost every family member living in NY showed up to. lol What an experience that was. I loved seeing my friends and family all together like we use to in the days of big backyards and good food and drink. I'm glad my roomate got to meet them all and they love her and they see I'm doing well. woohoo. Check and Check. Old friends got to talking again, new friends were made, friends became fam. It was a great time.  The next couple of days were filled with good food, conversations, a Met game in between and a trip to broadway.  Vanessa and I got to see West Side Story. OMG it was amazing. I cried she cried. My laatinoos represented and made me sooo proud.  And it gave her the inspiration again to go back to Miami and represent like she's been doing for the past year. I recommend it to everyone. This week has been chill and relaxing, being at home and just enjoying my place and friends. Last night I watched the replay of Brave New Voices. Where youth from all over America spit spoken word in such a raw and inspiring way. Fearless, thought provoking, full of passion, humility and heart. I miss the days where I was inspired everyday. But that is all gonna change. Be the change you wish to see in the world and make shit happen. :)

unforgettable

I witnessed a beautiful wedding last night. Small, intimate, and full of love. As I watched the first dance I couldn't help but to think back to my own experience. The song unforgettable came on and I was taken back to my father daughter dance. I haven't cried much in a while, trying to be strong, trying to,,,,well just trying,,, Watching their family enjoy the time together. I was privileged to be apart of it. But my heart breaks. I've become I can honestly say a cynic of love. I love love. But to give your heart whole heartily is tough to do. Will I ever be able to do it again. I hope so. =(

Random Quotes

Love:

Only Unfufilled love can be Romantic,,,

Religion:

The original way faith was taught was to hope for heaven, while living in hell on earth,,,

Acting:

Never mistake ur presence as the event, the fact we get to do this is the gift,,,

Love in it's truest form

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails....And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."

Love is a kicker I tell ya. People strive for it, kill for it, when they find it they hold on to it so tight, when they've had too much of it they can take it for granted. A child's love is the greatest love I think. So pure, untainted by society, what they should love, what can it do for them, no fear. As adults the experiences in our lives mold us and we are then subjected to particular criteria on what we want love to be. Movies, books, fanciful flights of wistfulness, romance and butterflies. I love love. It's hard though when honesty and love don't quite mix. To want to love but can't. Have those perimeters you've delicately placed around your heart, that you don't necessarily wanna cross, but when you find yourself putting one foot over the line, you quickly retract it. What a life.

I love the pavement dancing!

Chasing Pavement - Adele

Everybody Knows but Nobody Really Knows

LMAO!!!